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Hi! I'm iimpavid. I've come back from Pillowfort to blog about all sorts of things. In the coming weeks/months I will likely adjust access settings to this journal as I learn about DW.

If you want to help my wife and I buy accessible housing so my wife can get around in her wheelchair and ultimately improve our lives, you can do that here.

Communities I moderate:

pillowfortu_haul
- This place houses the prompt posts we affectionately called Blanketboxes. If you're looking for something to blog about, you can start there. If you have a Blanketbox to share, please post it there, too!
iimpavidwrites
- This one is for everything I write. It's still being built.
finder_carlaspeedmcneil
- This one is for everything related to FINDER. I noticed that the late ciaan had begun a finder community back in 2013 before she died; I'm hoping to renew those efforts because this comic is amazing and more people should readi t.

Communities I am active in:

STICKY POST UPDATED 27 OCTOBER 2026

Current Mood: determined
Current Location: Sunroom
Current Music: David Wimbish - Love at the End of the World

I require assistance for the sake of my sanity. I am stuck in a hell-loop of my own making.

When I add a cut tag to a post I've copied and pasted as plaintext into the Rich Text Editor, even if I add the correct <cut> and </cut> tags into the HTML editor in the correct places, only a single paragraph of text will be captured by the cut after I hit "post".
When I go back to edit the cut, it will save! ... but then all the line breaks between paragraphs in my post will be gone.
When I go in and manually fix the line breaks, I must then manually reposition the cut tags in the HTML before saving, otherwise it'll revert back to only a single paragraph being cut.
If I fix the line breaks and place the cut tags before posting, it does not matter, the above process still happens.
Then, if I edit the post at all ever the loop begins again.

What am I doing wrong? How do I fix this?

update: Issue seems to be 60% my having beta features turned on and 40% DW just being Like That when you paste content in as plain text and I lack knowledge for why.

A solution that is currently working (ish) for me with the Beta features enabled (because i love the tagging convenience oh gods):

post html header for fic into custom html tab
paste fic in
use only <p> to set line breaks for anything ever (not div or br)
format text in custom html tab INCLUDING cut tags
add all metadata to the post
post as admin-only
view comm and confirm formatting stuck
unhide post
prosper

Future soltuions I'm going to test: Ellipsus process described below.

Many thanks, comrades!!!! <3

Current Mood: confused
Current Location: my favorite chair
Current Music: Florence + the Machine - Free

The daunting realization that the 25 fanfics I formatted and posted to my writing archive comm yesterday is only like 15% of the content I've written since I started on AO3. (Everything from before 2012 is just... lost to the sands of time.) ... And one of those posts was a masterpost for a series, so it REALLY ain't much to write home about.

I need to find a way to expedite this process.

But that's a problem for future me. For the morning, I've got another 10 or so Blanketboxes moved over to DW. I'm up to the "LGBTQIA+" tag, which is pretty skinny, as are most of the comm tags from here on out.

I've got an 8 a.m. work meeting that I'm not too excited for... although its results are a foregone conclusion and I can probably take a nap after. (I cannot, under any circumstances, forget how lucky I am to work from home.) Once I'm done with that, I'll probably get back to the archiving before the afternoon meeting-- unless by some miracle these meetings produce work for me to do. I would like to do my Actual Job now and again, you see, because having more formal work to do on top of my voluntary efforts would be an excellent distraciton from my plans this evening. Q and I are going to see Beauty & the Beast. I am terribly socially anxious. I'm planning on wearing my favorite dress (blue velvet, embroidered with gold stars) and I'm afraid that it'll be Too Much for ... a Wednesday night show. But how else would I ever want to dress for the theater? This is me we're talking about here. And what am I going to talk about during dinner beforehand? Who's to say?

I'm sure it'll all go well. They wouldn't have invited me out if they didn't want to spend time with me. It's entirely possible that I'm just awake a bit too early in the day.

Current Mood: anxious

A short review of some meat alternatives.

( Read more... )TL;DR I'm not hating this! While the pork taboo is probably a temporary thing (as preparation for some work in the Spring) and my aversion to other meats (primarily chicken) will likely wear off in time, I can't imagine I'll be badly positioned by having non-meat options for protein in my diet!

to iimpavidwrites
- at least half of my ~148 fanfics from the last 15 years
- most of my devotional poetry collection
- selected passages from The Illyrian Codices
- set up tags obvsly
to my FINDER comm
- Jaeger is a Trickster Spirit and I Can Prove It (an essay)
- my (unfinished lmao) FINDER fanfic obviously
- Favorite FINDER panels without context
- Lynne Grosvenor being a queer icon
- reading FINDER Bingo
- FINDER Library vol. 1 scavenger hunt for new readers
- 30 Days of FINDER creative prompts
- set up tags obvsly
- figure out where crossposting to other comms is permissible
to PillowfortUhaul
- finish moving over blanketboxes (I only just got to the "science" tag today RIP)
- fill Star Trek blanketbox!!!
- fill Vampires blanketbox!!!
- fill DC blanketbox!!!
- make & fill a FINDER blanketbox, niche comic fandom be damned!!
to my main blog
- a handful of wordpress posts about spiritwork that got traction
- the journey to going no contact with my mom
- pictures of my projects from my first year of knitting
- northern tradition practices for: the wild hunt, wolfenoot, mother's night, yule, etc.
- quoted devotional poetry from my favorite poets
- prayers for the queer ancestors of all
- pictures of Harold and Maud (they are plants)
- start a tag for The Gimp Suit Project

I also want to:

Create a community for the fanfic universe Goblinwife and I are slowly working on, Red Sun.
set up its tags
figure out how the fresh fuck the workskins will translate to dw

This is at LEAST 3 months' worth of work. I expect y'all to hold me to this.

Current Mood: Ambitious
Current Location: the solid embrace of the floor
Current Music: LoFi Girl

One of the greatest lessons I've had-- and continue to learn-- from Sigyn is that compassion, like hope, is a discipline. A person does not just magically experience this emotion, one must cultivate the conditions in which it thrives for it to take root. (Or maybe normal people do experience compassion easily, who the fuck knows. I just know that I don't.)

Often I feel this is incredibly stupid but highly effective.

Anyway, this is a case study for how I've been cultivating compassion.

( Read more... )While none of this is especially glamorous, these are some of the bones that make up "having compassion" or "showing compassion". The action is critical and the emotions will follow with time and careful cultivation. Your mileage may vary, of course.

I will finish transporting blanketboxes into the PillowfortU_Haul before I start building up the FINDER community I just made.
I will finish transporting blanketboxes into the PillowfortU_Haul before I start building up the FINDER community I just made.
I will finish transporting blanketboxes into the PillowfortU_Haul before I start building up the FINDER community I just made.
I will finish transporting blanketboxes into the PillowfortU_Haul before I start building up the FINDER community I just made.
I will finish transporting blanketboxes into the PillowfortU_Haul before I start building up the FINDER community I just made.
I will finish transporting blanketboxes into the PillowfortU_Haul before I start building up the FINDER community I just made.
I will finish transporting blanketboxes into the PillowfortU_Haul before I start building up the FINDER community I just made......

I do not, ever, want to lose this pattern, found here.

One of the most fun things about moving blanketboxes into the

pillowfortu_haul is seeing all the blanketboxes I now want to respond to. Top of my list right now are:

Vampires Blanketbox
Spyrograph's Star Trek blanketbox
RadarsTeddyBear's Autumn blanketbox

I'm trying not to use the internet on the weekends and it's going well. The trouble with this is... Pillowfort is closing down in december. So I've got around 5 weeks to build the habit of posting on a new platform with a new interface and new culture...

Anyway, here's a nice post to begin the Monday morning rush.

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Pillowfort’s closure has caused such a major sadness in my body that I’m now having an arthritis flare. On top of other stressors— like my newfound inability to eat meat, trying to buy my wife a house, grandpa-in-law starting hospice, the general state of the economy, and the looming election— it’s fair to say I really didn’t need this level of Ouch right now. I’m not having the best time.

Moving Blanketbox Box content over here is going slowly but smoothly. I’m heavily debating, in the future, allowing users to post box fills to the comm. Would that create challenging clutter? Would it generate much-needed activity? Who’s to say? I don’t know what the pace and cultural expectations on DW are yet, outside of accessibility-friendly design (which is already part of my dayjob).

In the meantime, I’m having moderate success keeping up with some for-trade work for HG. The work is satisfying (I’m redesigning an older course of theirs and drafting a new one with them from whole cloth, so stay tuned). We’re trying to build as much accountability and learner interaction as possible in— which is tricky with adult learners doing this stuff in their spare time. Past a certain point there’s a bit of “if they don’t do it you just have to accept that they’ll fail”, which is tough in a spiritwork space. But necessary.

anyway, I’ve stalled long enough. I’m going to finish getting ready for class.

Current Mood: sad

How did you find Pillowfort? What made you want to join?

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I am so grateful to Pillowfort -- to Julia, our dear creator-- for giving me a soft place to land in 2018. I was in a really precarious place for ... a lot of reasons. This site gave me a new home. This site helped me kickstart friendship I hold precious today. I'm lucky to have had this experience at all. The fact that PF closing down hurts so much tells me how very much I love every second of being here.

Share your Pillowfort experience here and on other sites with the Laundry Day Blanketbox and use the tag Pillowfort Eulogy so that we can find each other and others can appreciate the profound impact this site has had.

Join

pillowfolks and

pillowfortu_haul if you'd like to keep up with folks from Pillowfort!

Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Location: The Moving Van

I must be radiating sadness about Pillowfort or something because my wife has been especially accommodating-- she bought me flowers and made me breakfast today. I'm really lucky I have her in my life.

I'm pleased to have set up the BlanketboxBox answer. I'm going to play around with backdating posts (at least at the year level) so that I can get all the Blanketboxes moved into

pillowfortu_haul in at least a slightly logical fashion. I've also set up a community for my writing,

iimpavidwrites so that I can port my fic over from AO3 and my poetry. I'm officially paranoid about losing it, although I doubt AO3 is going anywhere any time soon. (Gods bless the Organization for Transformative Works.)

Next on my list is to start working on my posts for the Pillowfort Eulogy Blanketbox-- which will be shared both on PF over the coming weeks and here... this is, however, only viable if I can pull myself away from Stardew Valley. I haven't wanted to do anything else for the last 24 hours. I don't even feel motivated to knit-- and I got new yarn! It's for a present for Q! And I don't care!

There's a Big Sad looming about Pillowfort, y'all, I'm telling you.

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Location: The Moving Van

Congratulations to the handful of you who responded to my question! That is more than enough incentive for me to tackle a trasfer task I was planning on doing anyway. I have begun a community,

pillowfortu_haul which will house Blanketboxes of the past!

I am copying over Blanketboxes I have made and those from deactivated users first.

If YOU would like to copy over Blanketboxes you own, I encourage you to do so after reading the sticky post in Pillowfort U-Haul. PLEASE READ THE STICKY POST found here.

My favorite part of teaching CPR is getting to lug a duffle bag full of manikin heads around the office pretending quietly to myself that I am Jason Todd hard at work cleaning up Gotham*

*collateral damage nonwithstanding

Current Mood: mischievous
Current Location: the past, present, and future

fun spooky thing that happened last night: the person walking in front of me disappeared.

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Current Mood: spooky
Current Location: the past

Well, in light of my favorite social media site on the planet shutting down, I'm going to be dusting off my Dreamwidth and attempting, once more, to use it with reliability.

Things I have learned actually help with my endometriosis:

instant mashed potatoes, for the nausea
protein coffee drinks, because solid food makes the entire body furious no matter how good it tastes and straight coffee sometimes is just too damn painful-- this way i get actually useful fuel with less pain
fennel and/or licorice tea, but not mint
filtered water because i'm allergic to copper and our pipes are copper
scalding hot baths or hot water bottles, not showers, because this overwhelms my skin nerves and causes temporary elevation in endorphins from the acute pain, relieving pain elsewhere.
getting hotboxed by other people because I can't consume the devil's lettuce directly in any form for a variety of incredibly annoying reasons -- and i have no idea why secondhand works so well for pain management and google has no answers i've found
dicyclomine, which is an IBS medication that slightly relaxes smooth muscles in the abdomen, which reduces a SMALL amount of the endo pain
doxycycline, which is an antibiotic shown in lab studies (petri dishes) and anecdotal self-report evidence to reduce the growth of endometrial lesions
yoga, but like not in a crunchy white lady way and is helpful only for the wind down symptoms and between-periods pain/inflammation
avoiding high fat foods, gluten, dairy, and most preservatives-- but not in an anorexia way, like these things actually cause observable worsening of my intestinal problems which aggravates the endo because my internal organs are spackled with that shit

Things that I was told will work that are actually bullshit:

anti-inflammatory medications-- "endo is an inflammatory condition just reduce your inflammation" go directly to hell, do not pass go, do not collect $2000, you idiot goddamn doctor
more cardio -- i have endo lesions that grow in my leg muscles, which means that overexercise can cause them to rupture which is fucking excruciating
opioid pain medications-- this one was a real surprise but i discovered after an unrelated surgery that the medications i was given (The Good Stuff, none of this tylenol+ shit) did nothing at all to cover up my endometriosis pain
ginger powder, tumeric, pine needle tea, rose hips, chammomile tea, cinnamon, garlic, green tea-- i eat and drink so many fucking plants on a regular basis and they don't do shit for the endo or its peripheral symptoms.
N-Acetylcysteine, which is a supplement used to treat aspirin overdoses which purportedly helps endometriosis. it does absolutely fuckall.
weight loss -- when i dropped 100 after the stroke my endo only escalated because weight loss tells the body its in danger which increases your stress hormones. more stress hormones over time means more inflammation and pain.

This month endo is absolutely destroying me. I'm pretty sure I say that every month but holy shit does everything hurt right now.

There are endometriomas growing on my appendix and possibly my kidneys. Not only that but they're also starting to grow inside my vaginal wall and vulva, as endo can travel from the pelvic muscles/ligaments and down the legs, all the way into my upper right thigh. They're definitely growing in places that are too close to my urethra and my clitoral nerves, too, just based on where i'm feeling pain and experiencing other problems.

That's to say nothing of the hormone headache I've had for three days and the unrelenting nausea. The heart palpitations and overall weakness.

I'm really fucking over this. Cure for endo when?

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Location: the loving crush of the blanket nest

Today I had a new experience with my sensory processing— one I hope I don’t repeat ever again. At the grocery store self-checkout all of the machines were set to the highest possible volume and were all in use at once. About thirty seconds of this had me so dizzy that I nearly fell over. Moira had to finish buying our groceries for me.

This isn’t my normal response to cacophonous noise— usually I’m not bothered by it but if I am then I process it as pain and then irrational anger. I don’t tend to get ever dizzy unless I’m very sick or have been hit rather hard in the head, so this was startlingly unpleasant.

0/10, do not recommend

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Location: blanket nest
Current Music: The cats’ purring

This morning we went up the mountain to drum up the sun-- an annual ritual of goading the earth into closer orbit to that blessed ball of sky plasma through music-making. It was pretty damn neat. I'm wind-sore and tired as heck-- wake up time was 4 a.m.-- but I'm glad we did it. It felt good.

Mostly, I was focused on the mountain. I don't know much about it, except that the amphitheater in question is carved into stolen land and the "developer" who commissioned it had his house (located elsewhere on the mountain) burn to the ground after being struck by lightning. I can't help but find that to be a bit of retribution, although the mountain is owed more than that for what's been done to it. It felt... correct to make offerings and dedicate the music I was able to make to the mountain. A relief, like paying off part of a debt that's been outstanding for too long.

I hope that I can carry that into the new year: making things right, even if it's only by small degrees, for myself and for those I love.

Traditionally, we'd spend the next 4 days telling stories to continue keeping the dark at bay. I think that this year that might look like watching a lot of movies-- and my new close reading project with The Poetic Edda.

Wherever you are this week, whatever you're up to, I hope that Yule is gentle for you. I hope that you are warm enough and are not hungry. I hope you're able to take some time to pause and look at some light, and to hear or tell some stories.

Current Location: the world's least comfortable sofa
Current Music: Batya Levine - We Are Good, We Are Flawed

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